142 or 238

Should be getting ssi today

Glad supervision is early September. Can get that out of the way

4 months 21 days

Or

7 months 27 days

Just looking forward to the cool front hitting 

In like November lol

This last stretch is a real pain in the ass

Also found out I have to wait 48 hours after I’m done for all the computer systems to update 

Because my po could say I’m done

And I could get the signed and stamped pdf saying I’m done

But in that 48 hours before all the computers update 

I could still get called in and tested one last time 

Ugh what a pain in the ass

September right around the corner

Then I just have to get to January 

If early termination gets denied

Just 3 more months

I’ll be under 100 or 200 soon 

Hoping September is a quick month

But I’ve got a good system for making the days go quick

Lots of cigarettes a few energy drinks and a proscription sleeping pill

No matter if I go to sleep at 9pm or 5am I wake up at about 11:30am so may as well try to go to sleep as early as possible 

In all my years of doom scrolling

Primarily scoping teenage cheerleaders 

I’ve noted tonight

Girls go through something around 17-21 yo

Admitted more than I ever should have 13-14 was my favorite 

But this post isn’t about wanting to txt or call them

What happens to girls at 17-21 where they just drop like 5+ points on the 10 scale

Back in my day 50 was when girls started to fall off

Now it’s like 1-12 nothing

13-16 fire

Then somewhere 17-21 they aren’t even special anymore 

And this is following the best of the best 

I’ve been on insta since like 2015

I’ve got like 11 years of watching girls age

I’ve seen like 3 generations of girls going from 14 to 18

Is it the stress from graduating hs and having to keep up with the image 

In my years of scouting

They graduate hs deduction 

They get married or get serious deduction

They start college deduction

They leave we major deduction 

You take a perfect 10 higher than 10 then 4 years later they’re like a 3 and the only reason they are that high is because what they were in their prime

Boobs get bigger yuck

Hips get bigger yuck

Style gets strange

If they go to college they usually do college cheer is terrible compared to all star competitive

If they drink they want to show off their adult slender body and it looks alright but it’s just like… 4 years ago you were a 10 and now are you even really a 6

We don’t need to fix the age of consent 

Or work on the majority of the us population that thinks a 13-16 year old is a child or kid

We gotta get the 17-21+ year olds whipped into shape or go to war with god or even Jesus to make our 17-21+ look more attractive 

How in 4 years does a 10/10 sss 13 or 14 year olds go to a 5 and only 5 because you can still see the older posts and know who they were and where they sat

Every single person I know what’s hemp or marijuana legal

I don’t know a single person that wants guns more legal or even owns a gun

Yet here we are

Strictest rules for hemp and marijuana ever

And we’re paving a path for felons to get guns again

Not sure if video games got worse, I outgrew them, or it’s just that I’m not currently using drugs

Mind you I’ve played about 4 games seriously 

Halo 2, ffxi, gta, Tetris

And a few other games fishing planet, Minecraft

Then the old snes n64 gameboy games before og Xbox came out

It’s not that it’s a waste of time

Well it kinda is

But doing nothing on YouTube insta or TikTok is just better than playing video games

Don’t even get me started on gta 6

Needing to get gas, oil changes, do jail sentences… probably have to eat drink and #2

Pretty sure you have to pay taxes on properties 

F all that man

If someone explained all that to me I’d think you were designing the worst game ever

Ffxi lost the charm

I just need to get back on drugs 

Growing up they always tell you how bad jail food is

But I’d take jail food over most fast food

If I could get a soft piece of whatever type of bread that is on the trays

And don’t even get me started about oatmeal and grits

Chicken 🔥 

SOS 🔥 

Potatoes 🔥 

Whatever that Italian pasta tray was 🔥 

Noodles hit better in jail

The turkey you get on thanksgiving 🔥 

Coffee and the 10 o clock news 🔥 

Getting rice and pineapples 🔥 

Bread rice a fruit oatmeal grits on the daily 🔥 🔥 🔥 

Why does jail have to hav such good food

And have to be such a bad place

The struggle of you broke the law you messed up now you’re being punished 

And

You’re under arrest to get better and be a better person

Then it’s I tried everything and no one helped

Then it’s you made the choice not the other person

Then it’s I tried everything including attempting suicide

Then we talk about the councilor therapist shrink psychiatrists and all the 911 calls

Then we get out get our own apartment 

And it’s time for a few years on probation 

Then it’s x amount of days and I can smoke and drink again

And it goes on forever

So glad tomorrow is my Friday

I get tired of taking Brooklyn the truck

I’ll be at 140 days to go soon

Probation is the first week of September 

And it’s already almost August 20th

Big thing I’m looking forward to is summer to end

I’m freaking tired of this heat 

So I’ve basically got to wait until November-_-

September and October are both hot here

One random day in November it gets chilly enough I can turn my 4 acs off and just relax

November I get to remind my po to do the paper work to try for early termination 

Then I need to know if I get accepted how I’m going to get the official documents 

And if the date listed is when I can stay out late or go to bars or drink beer

Still planning on doing the month long video

It’ll mostly be me sleeping then waking up taking a hit going back to sleep and repeat lol 

Been drinking more energy drinks

Energy drink cigarettes ain’t bad

If I drink about 3 energy drinks I can just zoom through the day then get my 12 hours of sleep

Still 140 days is so long 

My biggest fear is being told I’m officially done then drink and smoke and get called in to do a ua after my official done date which I’ve heard of happening

That would suck so bad

Being on supervision sucks so bad

I should of asked about house arrest 

But freedom enough to go to the store whenever I want is nice

But I’ve heard of people getting third degree felonies and only needing like 3 months of house arrest 

That’s so short compared to 24 months of supervision 

Meh just need to keep spending money on energy drinks and cigarettes 

This 145 days will be done before long and I can finally feel at home while I’m home

My little sister needs to know I’m going to be smoking and drinking and I won’t be able to take her the truck 

I love how in 2026

And I don’t really love it it’s just something I observed

In 2026 it’s not normal to ask for someone’s phone number just to casually chat

Primarily it’s to try to hook up

And majority of people are only trying to hook up for something real

You got males and females that just want to play

But most of them have serious brain defects 

Like you get pussy a few times you should be over it

Personal experience been with 6 girls

Some younger than me some my age and some older than me

It just isn’t special 

11-25 any day of the week I would take a girl over money

30+ I’m taking money over pussy any day of the week

But say I see a girl and I think she’s 18 but it turns out she’s 14

I ask her for her number thinking she’s 18 before we even introduce ourselves 

And instantly it’s not cool because I want to hook up with a 14 year old

It’s like every single thing is superseded by the fact she’s 14

Why can’t I just text or call and talk to a 14 year old

Why does it all need to be superseded by the fact she’s 14 then supersede that by if I text or call or even ask for the number I want nothing but sex

Like I literally do not want sex

I’d rather masturbate than hook up with a girl in every aspect of it

I don’t want to spend money. I don’t want a girlfriend. I don’t want kids. I don’t want to worry about anyone else but my mom my sister and my cats:

But that doesn’t mean I don’t want friends that are girls

Call it simping or whatever I’d rather have a friend that’s a girl than a girlfriend any day

Are girls that terrified of being friend zoned ??

No 14 year old is worth 20 years in prison for being inappropriate with

On the other hand I think 13 and 14 year old girls can be the coolest most mature out of any age

It’s before graduation hits and the reality of needing a way to survive without mom and dad

And when that happens they instantly get too good for anyone

If I could choose a friend I don’t want someone my age

I would take a 70 year old before I took someone my age

But I would take a 13 year old before I took a 70 year old

The world we live in is fucked 

Admittedly I’ve never tried to talk to a 13 or 14 year old in my 30s

But I’d be willing to bet all my money they would not reply

And that’s fine

Because they get messages on the daily of 30+ year olds trying to rizz them up

All the pedos and predators really did a number on us guys that just want 13 and 14 year old friends that are girls

You can’t even say you want to be friends with girls under 18 and not be a pedo or pred

Which is so wrong

But it’s the world we live in

Same world where Texas is literally giving more time for having weed than serial raping