officially at 180 days to go!

6 months!

half a year!!

Not considering possible early termination

Could be 3 months, could be 1 month, could not happen at all.

Gone through all the stages of wanting to drink and smoke again

from not being able to stop

to stopping and wanting it so bad

to stocking up and thinking about it daily

to now being like I don't know if I even want to when I can

deep down I know I do want to and I am going to

It's just scary you can be officially done and they can still call and tell you to come in to do a ua

After you get signed and stamped by the judge

after you get your release papers

if all the computers don't update or the court house doesn't put it in right

you can still get that call.

I can't wait to stop relying on cigs all day and night and stop drinking monsters and coffee

cigs, monsters, coffee, and ffxi are badass time sinks though

drink one monster and viola 5 hours pass like nothing

then doing 2 hour fishing sessions on 11 *Chef's kiss*

been staying up until like 12am and sleeping until like 6pm

Just straight 11 from 9pm to 12am then a few hours of sleep and back at it

probation all paid for. I have all the money put to the side. my next payment is in february and i can pay the whole thing off.

it's already october 22, about 2 weeks until my next office visit

Then

Don't count april(no office visit) and don't count the next office visit because that's the one i'll be on (December) it's like counting the day you are on when you're waiting days for something.

Meaning I'll only have 3 more office visits  Jan Feb March JUST THREE!!!

and if I get early release I could be done in january or march

I'm getting to the tail end, the downhill portion

It Is Almost Over

nov office visit + thanksgiving

december office visit & ua + christmas/new years

Jan office visit

feb short month + superbowl(I think it's the only football I watch)

march office visit and ua

april no office visit just 22 days and DONE

may have to wait up to a week or more for my papers to come in the mail but I also get pdfs the second theyre released

I can't believe how long this has been and it's almost over

1188 days since charge. 180 days to go.

im staying so busy in 11 steady drinking coffee and monsters

it's going to be here in no time

then i can wake up smoking and drinking and go to sleep smoking and drinking

I'll get to exp pt and fish and code and everything faded

I can't wait.

i feel like such a loser wanting to get faded so bad to play a video game

but genuinely to me it's just that much better honestly lol

I don't want to drink and smoke to be lazy

I want to pimp out my thf I want to get maat's cap

possibly work on a relic

merit or exp if I need it by then which I will

I cannot wait to be drunk and high playing 11

telling my sister to f off  get her own ride im drunk

and just staying home and fishing

aahahahahahahahaha

FUCK OFF BROOK IM DRUNK AND IM NOT DOING ANYTHING BUT FISH LIK

hahahaha

god I can't wait

then they my mom and sister will make me feel like shit for just wanting to smoke and drink and play 11 but I already know  fuck them it's been 4 years if i can't get a week or 2 to drink smoke and binge 11 who the fuck are they which they will but that's some cold shit

YOURE JUST MAD I WONT GIVE YOU A RIDE
ITs BEEN 4 YEARs LET ME LIVE MY LIFE 

IVE GIVEN YOU RIDES FOR 4 YEARS THE ENTIRE TIME
DONT PISS ON MY PARTY

hahahaha