Doing my best to not have kids

Vs

Doing my best to have kids

Both feel exactly the same as far as making forward movement or bettering my life 

Not having sure is a lot better for my wallet and sanity 

To have sure does cause a lot of stress

Makes you think you should be wanting to have 

Since not having is so much better

Then we’re talking about how we will feel in 20 years

But we’re here now

And that 20 years is going to be awhile and it’ll already be too far to turn back by then 

Like everything in me knows doing my best to not have kids is the better thing

There’s gotta be something to having kids that’s good

But I can’t think of a single one

And not having kids is good all around for pretty much everything 

When I’m like 60 am I going to be upset I didn’t have a kid at 35

Or will I just be happy and have all the money in the world and love my cats

Which isn’t different from today

And I like today

When I’m 60 I’ll probably think why did I ever have a kid when I was 35

I hate his wife

He’s stressed me out for 25 years and spent all my money

I feel like I would have to get stupid stupid to want one or have one