Getting so tired of my elder cat peeing on the walls

It’s so much extra work mopping up after her -_-‘

But I love her so I can do it

I’m watching vpmarche’s stream while I have a script running to watch over my chocobos

And cleaning my apartment 

I’m supposed to get a check today

Then I get a second check on Thursday 

Decided I’m probably not going to get all court costs paid on this next visit

But I should only have about $50 left to pay

It’s either pay it all and have nothing for 2 weeks not even a ff11 sub for a few days

Or not pay it all and actually have a little money

Enough for food and ff11

Which is what I’ve decided is probably the better choice

I’ve done the spending all my money on fees and just surviving off of the can foods I have here at home

And it sucks

I get tired of it instantly

So I need to grab my rent money

Pay my bills

Put my supervision fee to the side

Pay what I can of court costs

And hopefully be able to have about $80 for 2 weeks of food and ff11

I’m getting used to eating ramen

It won’t be much more longer surviving with ramen

In about 2 months I’ll be done with probation fees

Thank god

So ready for November to be over because that means I’ll basically be completely done with fees

Maybe one more check after November 

November 13th is my next check I can pay off court costs then save the rest for supervision 

Then the second November check plus my ssi

Then the first check in December 

After those I should be completely done

November December 

January - December 

January February 

16 months

Then I won’t count November because I’m on it

So 15 months to go

Finish fees in November maybe the first check of December 

I’m so ready so so ready 

Not rent for November but rent for December I need to pay with cash from my payroll check

So I can save money on my card

I’m planning on spending some of my supervision savings on my first order

And I plan on placing that order in December 

Just getting my hands on some quantity is going to boost my attitude and confidence so much

I’ll be getting $50 extra a month. That’s not much but $50 a month for 15 months that’s $750

Honestly I’m tired of thinking about it I’m tired of planning and talking about it

I just need to make it to 2026

I’ll have 14 months to save up $1,000

I really don’t even need to worry about saving that 1k quickly because I can’t pay the fees only $60 a month

It would just be nice to have it all sitting there and not need to worry about it

One less thing to worry about 

Community service done

Anger management done

Court costs paid

Supervision fees all saved up for

14 months to go

14 months making approximately 950 extra each month

Pretty boss I make 1,655 a month

But after rent and bills I have 950 left over each month

Keep that up

2026 is going to be a fun year

2023 was rough 2024 was terrible 2025 has been pretty bad

2026 is going to be the first good year in many years

2027 is gearing up to be the best year in decades 

Making it to this point in the thought process gets me so excited 

Because what all am I going to buy and in which order lol

I get right at about $13,000 to spend on my drinking and smoking habit hahahahah

I don’t want to get the flower too early where it’s just sitting for a year

I do want to get some as soon as possible 

But I want to get all of the other stuff first I think that’s a better idea

Maybe place a 2 for 1 order

Then spend 2 or 3 months buying all the tools

Then I’ll have 9 or 10 months to go

Aaaaaaaahhhhhhh :D

9 months to go is crazy talk

At 9 months to go I’ll be 15 months in with everything done perfect not one violation 

It’ll be may. May is nice it’s a little warm but not too hot yet then I’ve got the horror that is June July August in Texas but for some reason the hot months seem faster but slower when working in the heat get to take more breaks though hot seems faster cold months slower but growing older it’s all about just enjoying each month the most you can to make them go faster

No point in over planning 

I’m working on my digging set up in game

Raising 8 chocobos right now

Doing my daily digs on each

Working on farming chocobos ropes for each character 

Enjoying my days off

Working hard trying to pass the days quick in my work days

Eating a lot of ramen

And putting off cleaning my apartment lol

I need to do it so bad but I procrastinate it like heck