just got told by a trusted person that my manager is firing people and I may be one of them

going to vent on here for a second

I'm a hard worker

I've done everything my manager ever asked me to do when he asks

He's letting one of the maintenance men going tomorrow along with 2 of the housekeepers

he's hiring a man and woman couple to do housekeeping and maintenance

He's shown no signs of wanting to get rid of me

but I was told it could happen since he's getting rid of so many people

I'm upset

I had so many plans with the money from the job

basically it completely ruins my dream of having 20 pounds to smoke when I get off of probation

I go from making 1600 a month to making about 1000 a month

I know from community service some people on probation needed to either be going to school or have a job

I'm not confident in my ability to get another job but I don't even know if I need a job since I get ssi disability

it'll be the first thing I ask on this next appointment because it's the biggest hurdle I have in my way right now

and that's about all the negatives

I lose about 600 a month and it could be a problem with probation but I don't know for a fact

i'll have to eat free lunch at the church

on the positive side

I won't have to work so i'll be able to stay at home all day with my girls this is huge for me, I hate working and getting to spend the entire week at home with my girls is a huge blessing

no waking up and getting ready no working for all the hours

just at home all week for months and months in peace

it's more realistic, working the 37 hours every 2 weeks making all this money having so much to spend just isn't realistic it isn't something I would ever get in reality

1600 is a whole lot 1000 is much more realistic

I get so much to spend it feels way to good to be real I usually have over 600 to spend each month if I lose my job i'll have about 300 to spend

so it isn't that big of a change

instead of 600 I'll have 300 but I don't have to work 1 minute of the month which is much more comfortable for me

off of the postives just venting

I'm upset I could lose my job AGAIN for seemingly no reason

but I've always loved when I do lose my job and I can just be a bum at my house with my girls it's much more my speed

so I make 370*2 +730 +25 1,495  not even 1600

I'll be making 880 +140 1,010

I lose 485 but that seemed like so much money it didn't feel real it felt like I was doing something illegal to make that much money

I end up with 195 a month

-60 to supervision -50 to smokes -25 to cats -80 to bills -600 to rent

680 to 195

gah it's worse than I thought

BUT still I get to be at home all day long with my girls

is 480 really worth waking up getting dressed staying presentable having to work the hours needing to eat more having to work

it's close

it's like yeah it's alright making the 1010 if you don't work

or making the 1495 if you do work

pretty fair either way

I lose my dream of working 1 more year buying 20 pounds then being done with work for 10 years and having enough to smoke for 10 years

vs

I don't work and I just 100% enjoy my time since I don't work

where I can buy 2 pounds a month for 12 months

vs buying 2 pound every 4 months

meaning, best case scenario, I have 6 pounds by the time i'm done

but all that is bought from money I got while not working

idk man seems A LOT more realistic

the entire no job thing seems more realistic

obviously I want to keep my job as long as possible

and obviously this entire next check is going towards paying off court costs now, not food lol

6 pounds isn't bad at all

I won't get to buy the super fancy stuff

or any of the equipment I wanted

but I think i'm okay with that

I'm going to work as much as I can like I was never told they may let me go

I want to make as much money as I can

I need to make sure having a job isn't part of my requirements up at probation

I'm going to spend this next check all on court costs and get that paid off

then if I get let go I'm going to entirely enjoy it

so long as I don't need to work for my probation lol