Right now it's just waiting for the 10th

for when the 10th rolls around

10th is my next supervision appointment

I don't have enough money to pay my fees rn

but i'll get a check before then and I can probably cash it right before I go

then i'll have enough

the end of this month and first half of december was and is going to be pretty tough

ssi went down $500 because I ended up with three work checks for october

but ssi should go back up by january I hope

I hope so much it was just because I got those 3 checks instead of the normal two and it does go back up

otherwise i'm screwed 

as far as fees go

I owe 265 to court costs and I owe 960 to supervision

I had the money to pay court costs but since ssi got lowered for december I ended up spending it on food which was a much better choice because I can actually feed myself

I dont just have court costs paid and zero dollars for food then wind up starving to death lol

so not setting any dates but right now if I pay the 265 and I pay the 180 over that I can pay 960-180=780

I would owe 780 and at the quickest it would take like 13 months to pay that off paying 60 a month

but 780 isn't THAT much money it's about a month of saving so give me 2 or 3 months and I should be able to make it easy

10th i'll get my normal check which is about 370 I'll end up spending about $70 for fees and bills

then i'll be sitting at 300 24th i'll get my next check which puts me at 670 and around 24th maybe 25th i'll get my next check which i'm guessing will be for 780 680 to rent and bills leaving me with 100 so 770

not quite enough to place my first order since I do need to set some to the side for fees

but maybe the first check in january

unless I want to play extra safe and just keep waiting

I was thinking about saving up to 2,000 paying my fees and placing my order

but I really have no idea

I love having the extra money and getting to eat nice

but if I spend the extra money to eat nice or I eat cheaper dollar tree food both ways it fills me up and I can make a poop or go to sleep lol the difference is like $10 for a meal or $2 for a meal and both do the same thing and both taste pretty darn good

december puts me at 14 months to go

not bad when you consider I have been putting up with this for 29 months so far

to put it all in perspective

a little over 2/3 of the way done

january i'll be at 13 months to go 30 months done

then it just keeps getting better

by the time winter is over and summer is blazing in around august i'll have 6 months to go 

august 6 months to go 37 months done

but august is pretty far away so that's just looking out

still 37 months done 6 months to go, that's something to look forward to

my biggest concern is if I can keep my job for that long lol

I'm getting to the point I dont really need my job

but it is pretty easy work and good money

so I 100% do not want to lose it

just keep getting support from my girls

keep going, being on time, leaving at my time, doing the work

I should be good

and I still don't know if i'm required to hold a job for supervision

as far as the weed goes

January I can make my first order, not sure if I will

but besides january that gives me 10 months to make money and place orders

considering the hemp ban will take place nov 2026 but hopefully something happens before then to stop it, and it looks like Texas is already planning on keeping the hemp moving, which is great