Well, things went to shit

got my ssi it was still 300, F**k

got to keep my job but the hours got cut, F**k

got food stamps taken away and I think it's because ssi is giving wrong amount, F**k

next check on the fifth is going to be tiny because we got told not to come in during the storm, F**k

I paid internet and I have rent money

have to get help with phone bill

and i'm down to $60 to last basically as long as I can make it, aiming for 4 weeks

have to save all my money then see what I can get on my next check

and hopefully without asking for help have enough to pay my fees

no luck on getting court costs paid off I'll be lucky if I can pay the bare minimum

financially it is getting really difficult

I told my nurse at mhmr and she said when next month march rolls around if i'm still sol which i'm pretty sure I will be to just ask for help and they usually have no problem helping people out with rent

because the way I see it, I have $60 now.. my next check will be $180 if i'm lucky I'll pay $110 to fees

which leaves me with $130 for 4 weeks

my next check at the end of feb will be around 250 hopefully and if ssi is still 300 that means I can't even pay rent much less internet phone and fees

fees will have to wait until the first check in march

and basically it just all gets impossible

if I ask for a loan it'll take months to pay back even $100 

if I ask mhmr for help and they pay my rent I could catch up because that rent money would allow me to keep some of my own money to either pay people back or pay fees

but I mean right now and the past few months I haven't made a single unnecessary purchase for a long time not even food that's too expensive AND i switched from buying menudo from restaurants to buying menudo in the can which saves me like 50% since it's $14 from restaurants and $5 in the can for basically the same amount

but even working my normal schedule and getting my screwed ssi check I have no way possible to do it

say I didn't get those days taken out from the snow storm

I'm going to be getting around 250 a check instead of 350

my entire month is 250(paycheck)+250(paycheck)+300(ssi) $800, $600 to rent $80 to bills $110 to fees and however much left for cat food kitty litter and smokes but rent bills and fees alone I'm at $790 which means I would have to make $10 get all my cat food all my kitty litter and all my smokes for the month, impossible

basically I have to schedule another appointment with the social security office and tell them again but in person this time what they are saying I am making is not right and it hasn't been right for 2 months now

it was right in december because I got 3 checks in october(they look back 2 months)

but what they said I made for january and february checks was wrong I only got 2 checks for november and december and majority of the months I only get 2 checks

what they are saying i'm making is like hundreds of dollars off like $300 off what I am actually making

and I can't survive with their wrong amounts anymore

I have to eat at the soup kitchen I have to go to the food pantries there is no way I can make it on $800 a month I can't even buy the things I actually need food cat food kitty litter smokes

so I just need to schedule an appointment asap asap asap

bring all my paper work and explain to them I think they have been making a major mistake and I need to see where I am doing the math wrong or if the math is wrong

I've never had an issue with my case worker before but 2 months of numbers being off is screwing me and my food stamps

On the bright side

Since I put the days countdown up it has been 20 days which seems like it has flown by

20 days since I put that up and it feels like yesterday

January has felt like it's taken months to finally get to the end and we still have 3 freaking more days

I'm so ready to be done with january lol

my next big milestone is in 90 days, 3 months, I'll finally be at 365 more days to go which puts me at 1 year done 1 year to go

and in 90 days the countdown will have been up for 110 days and i'll have 365 days to go so basically what I will have done, I just need to do that 3 more times and I'm down to like 1 month to go

thca is getting banned any day now could be before the end of the month in texas anyways

it doesn't bother me at this rate I could never place an order anyways

I'm just going to find a dealer and buy like I did before it was legal

just getting the taste of weed being legal was the best thing we have ever got here in texas

thca legal for 7 years 3 of which I was unable to buy due to supervision and 1 I was unable to buy due to not having any money so I got 3 good years of it

when it does get made illegal and it most definitely will I know the black market will surge and it'll be stupid easy to find a good dealer

I'm hoping for one that can deliver ounces lol

if they can't deliver hopefully one close to my area where I can go pick up ounces

all the ideas of living the dream and buying pounds legally is completely in the past

which I don't know as good as thca was it wasn't like buying the real thc it never hit quiet as good even if it did have similar effects

so definitely not going to be able to buy pounds or place any orders for that

but who cares the black market is going to surge and there's going to be people selling better bud on every corner

obviously you run the risk of getting in trouble but i've never got in trouble for bud just have to stay low and be private

I'm not worried at all because I know I can get some even with it being illegal

my biggest concern is somehow getting all my bills and rent and things I need paid for coming up in March

which means I need to make an appointment with social security office to make sure they are paying me the correct amount

if worse comes to worse I need to ask mhmr for help with my rent

I can't really afford to ask people for help because it would take months to pay off even a small amount

thca is getting banned in texas, not to worry thc blackmarket will surge so you can buy bud from basically anyone

I'm making $800 a month now because I have a job and if I didn't have a job I would be making $1,020

so sad

that's my update