I don’t feel like I have schizophrenia or psychosis 

I know I used to take a lot of psychedelics and smoke a lot and drink a lot

I know I was very lonely and would have extremely deep thoughts about manifestation and manipulating reality to get things like more money and girlfriends 

It all started out when I wanted to get texts faster and get replies faster

But none of that ever even comes around anymore 

I don’t care about texts

I don’t care about a girlfriend 

I have a job and money

But I’m not telling the nurse the injection doesn’t work

I’ve been told if I don’t get the injection I lose my ssi

So the injection helps not for anything the injection does to my psyche but because it allows me to keep drawing ssi lol

I definitely made it seem like I had schizophrenia and psychosis because I knew I could get money

And I had nothing when I got ssi no money no job the most I got paid for was house sitting and mowing my own lawn from my grandma 

I want them to say I don’t have schizophrenia anymore

But I can’t afford to lose my ssi

So I’m going to stick with I was diagnosed with schizophrenia for as long as possible 

Schizophrenia is an illness and you can’t technically get better it’s a permanent illness for life

While I don’t actually believe I have it and a psychologist just one day said she believed I had it and then it’s set in stone for my entire life

The ssi check is totally worth it

No one is ever going to say I recovered from schizophrenia or I’m no longer schizophrenic that’s never going to happen

But at least I get money because the psychiatrist believed I had it enough to diagnose me

It’s weird how you can take psychedelics and the trips can mimic psychosis or schizophrenia 

And all it takes is for a psychiatrist to believe you have schizophrenia 

And you can be diagnosed one time and that lasts your entire lifetime

But because of that you make an extra 700-1000 dollars a month

With no work you don’t have to do anything besides go in and get a free injection each month

Can you imagine the higher ups that control that psychiatrist’s doctorate 

Like he doesn’t have schizophrenia 

He was on drugs

Well let’s just give him what he wants

He gets $1,000 a month for the rest of his life

Once we diagnose him there’s no going back

We don’t even do check up reviews to see if their schizophrenia went away because it’s a permanent illness 

Give him what he wants

And viola $1,000 a month for the rest of my life starting at 23