I’m going to stop repetitively planning months and months in the future setting my anchor there and just trying to get there as quickly as possible 

Like when you’re in a class and you strategically look at the clock every 10-30 mins

Expecting 15 mins 20-25 mins is decent 30 mins is really good 10 mins is really bad 

And just trying to get through each day as quickly as possible 

Pain medicine energy drinks naps oversleeping 

It has been 4 years since I’ve got to smoke and drink good a good amount at a time 

I have a year and a half to go

Then I have to wait 2 or 3 weeks after I sign off to make sure the coast is clear

I know when I get to smoke and drink

It’s going to be such a fast day lol

I’m going to wake up and it’s going to be that day I marked on my calendar to actually smoke

And I’m going to smoke and drink as much as I possibly can

And it probably won’t even be 2 or 3 grams and I probably won’t get more than 4 beers down

And I’m going to pass out and be dead dead lol it’s going to be such a deep sleep

And everything I’ve done in the past 6 years is going to be like it didn’t even happen

I’m going to time travel to the last time I got to smoke good

But I’ll still be here today

And food will taste better and music won’t be hard to listen to or sound stupid and I’ll find new music I love

And I’ll find new girls I want to follow

And I’ll actually play ffxi again and I’ll be able to actually work on upbe4t.com

A year and a half to go

Everything done everything paid for

Wait a couple weeks to make sure I don’t get called in for a surprise ua

If I could smoke 3 grams that first day I would be so surprised lol

Drink a few beers

Then pass out and sleep like I haven’t slept in 6 years

Then wake up and do it again

Then I’ll wake up at like 11pm and I’ll do it again

Then I’ll wake up at like 5am and I’ll do it while the sun rises then I’ll be on ff11 and I’ll be playing and wanting to keep playing but my eyes will be closing on me and I’ll feel like I’m fighting sleep to play 11

I’ll drink a beer and it’ll wake me up then I’ll smoke and my eyes will get heavy and each drink I’ll be more awake while each hit sends me deeper in nirvana 

I’ll smoke before work go to work the hours will fly by then when my high wears off in about 3 hours I’ll have just a few more hours to get home

I get home crack open a cold one log on to 11 take a giant hit fight to stay awake while I love every minute of ff11

Start developing code again

Start sharing more of my code on upbe4t.com

Smoke literally as much as I possibly can all day every day for 10 years

Because if I can smoke 3 grams a day for that first year I would be impressed

And I’m going to have 7,000 grams 

Hopefully get to the point where I was at where I only eat like 2 meals a week

Because I get all my protein and nutrition from beer and weed like it’s a big steak and a big salad 

And every time I get hungry and think it’s time to eat I smoke and drink

Calling both beer and weed food not drugs food

Beer is my big juicy steak because the protein

And weed is my salad because it fills me up it’s warm like food it fills up my belly

I smoke so much my stomach fills completely full and my eyes bulge with each hit

I’ll have so much money

I’ll be able to pay for the entire cheer season of FloSports

I’ll have cheerleading on from December to April and the $30 a month sub won’t even bother me

Food stays the same but I eat a lot less so I can afford the best of the best when I do eat

I’ll get to the point that life isn’t a challenge or something to overcome 

Life will ascend and I’ll love every second no planning ahead no rushing in fact I’ll want to slow everything down where a minute hopefully lasts an hour because I’ll be loving everything I do so much cheer insta YouTube upbe4t.com food beer weed work I’ll love it so much I’ll want it to last as much as possible

And the only bad thing out of the whole deal is I’ll love life so much the fear of death or incarceration will actually scare me to the point I’m too good again and I won’t do anything wrong because I want to keep living my best life as long as possible

I’ll be 33 years old and feel like I’m 19 in my prime plenty of money a girlfriend that lets me have sex and gives me oral no beer just weed lsd and 69

A year and a half

It’s been 4 years already 

A year and a half

I’m going to get so high it’s going to feel like the days are going backwards 

Then the air will get different to where it’s like dead but it’s better

The heat from the sun feels real not like I’m just in a oven

The rain is so beautiful I can stop everything I’m doing to just look out the window and enjoy the rain

The cold feels so good it’s not a hassle shivering and doing everything to warm up is enjoyable it feels good

I’ll start streaming again I’ll start making YouTube videos again I’ll buy the new Xbox console when that gets released

I’m so damn excited for this next year and a half to be over so I can truly enjoy life on a deeper level