Proud to say my urge to chomo ped and look at csam is at an ALL TIME low

I credit this to several things

1 and the most prominent: doing a few months in jail and knowing what I went for isnt near as bad as chomoing or ped behavior and even then I got in a few fights

2: I don't want to hurt them I just want to look and enjoy

    Every day you hear stories from adults that were sold when they were 15 and they always say the exact same thing men want to do it to little girls for power and control and I always say no because that doesn't feel like why I would want to do it

I would want to do it because they are the most attractive and the instant I started to hurt them back off

soft skin great attitude good habits fun personality I wouldn't want to tarnish any of the best things that make them the most attractive

3: I'm just getting too old anytime I try to go out of my comfort shell I get banned and i've learnt my lesson

so between doing time in jail and knowing it would be so much worse, hearing horror stories and completely denying the reasons but knowing they would force and push the same narrative and agenda, just getting to the age it really isn't an option like it was 15 years ago

what I have found in this same area

Child sex dolls are completely legal in most states

what is illegal is having them shipped internationally 

but if you can find a shop in the us you can order any and I mean ANY age sex doll they have example pics of dolls that is literally csam content lol

I did some research for a few hours because I could definitely see myself dropping 700-1k on a doll maybe even 1.7k for all the bells and whistles

voice box, body heat, vibration, jelly boobs, special hair

I looked and looked for good ones I would be alright with

and perfect ones I would drop more money on

I actually did find a lot of children and infants from just a few weeks old to 8 years old

even though it's legal I think it's a little too dangerous

I looked for my idea of a perfect teenager

never found it

but i'm sure you can contract one to be made

I see no problem with dolls it 100% solves the issue with hurting a precious 13 or 14 year old

if control and power isn't your goal you can achieve pretty much all the main things with a doll

having her legs wrapped around you feeling the body heat having the perfect size bust waist and bottom

can design the breast exactly how you want

can design the hair and well literally everything

if you want their vagina to be one piece with the body or if you want it removable for easy cleaning

if you want their mouth to have a tongue or not if you want the mouth to be able to suck

I would easily drop 1k on the perfect doll

and not feel like a chomo or pred at all lol

weird little blind area

but I except the dolls to become illegal any day now

I never find the good stuff before it because illegal so I don't expect this to be any different

Glad I no longer want to touch or have sex with underage girls

glad if I found the perfect doll I could buy it and live out my fantasies

glad it is legal as long as you don't get it shipped

but I would be willing to bet a judge could bend the laws and charge anyone in possession

I'm still going to look at videos on instagram and pics on pinterest

that show teenage girls in cheer uniforms or bed wear showing their little butts and boobs

but usually the accounts and mom ran so everyone knows what is going on

but it doesn't have to be swimmers or girls opening christmas presents in their night gowns

it can be cheer at the competition when they do their performance

anything that shows that skin a little bit

heck I even watch season 3 degrassi just to see emma's lips in the first few episodes

they look so soft and wet 

it doesn't get my hard or in the mood but it makes me just enjoy seeing her

same with all the stuff

i'm not getting hard or ready

I'm just like damn that's attractive

I wouldn't do anything with them i'm just glad they are sharing