405-435 days to go

depends on if the judge grants me my time served, that's 30 days off

so i'm getting help with rent for this month confirmed, wooooo

I'm trying to get all the paperwork together to attempt to get help next month

I have most of it and I have plans to get all of it

I need it by tuesday morning because that is when I need to turn in the paperwork

I filled out the forms to get snap going again, just waiting for the phone call

everything and I mean EVERYTHING depends on if my ssi caseworker actually fixes my check amount

it has been wrong for two months now

and if we look at history i'm not too confident she will raise it sooner rather than later

which means on this next check I have to pay the minimum on fees

save whatever I can

then for the next month hopefully be able to pull it all together

this next month I hopefully can get help

April my ssi check should be back to normal IF MY CASEWORKER DOES HER JOB

and if it finally gets done April or May should be the first good month in A LONG TIME

I made $500 for the month of january so doing all the math my check should be like 660 but if they dont fix it I wouldn't be surprised if I only get 380 AGAIN

this new caseworker has been terrible for me thus far

I owe 145 to court costs I owe 830 to supervision fees

I plan on paying the minimum because I dont know what ssi is going to be for march or april

that'll put me at 95 and 770

we're about 1/3 done with february that's exciting

really i'm just waiting to get to june

I know my landlord will work with me but I can't owe him money for too long

and I dont have ANY other way to make money

if I can't afford it with ssi I just flat out am sol

but I mean best case scenario I only have 405 days to go

what I really need to happen more than anything is ssi to go up

I called social security administration and they said my case worker was going to give me a call  that was nearly 2 weeks ago and I haven't got anything

priority #1 is getting ssi to go up to what it should be

also priority #1 is making sure to at least pay the minimum on fees and get rent paid

another priority #1 is getting all the paperwork so I can at least try to get help with rent or next month

405 days to go best case scenario

no drinking no smoking

keeping my apartment clean

I have a ton of canned goods and some meat also lots of ramen so on food I am pretty good I just need to open up to eating more of the canned goods I have not just the stuff I really like

it's 11:40pm right now

I need to be up as early as possible

if I can't get all this paperwork together to try to get my rent paid for next month

or if they dont pick me to work with me

I will be SO shit out of luck

I know my ssi isn't going to go up enough where I can pay rent and fees and bills

oh also I have to call and cancel my internet tomorrow

I have to get like 15 different pieces of paper

I have to cancel my internet

I have to talk to my landlord

gaaaahhhh

I just hope to god it all gets done correctly and they do pick me to help with rent

then the struggle isn't even over yet

if ssi doesn't go up I can only pay the minimum on fees

then if ssi doesn't go up for april i'm so screwed