well some good news

I got the rest of the money I needed for rent

so rent is all paid for this month

unfortunately that means I owe someone for loaning the money

and once again which feels like it's been half a year

EVERYTHING DEPENDS ON MY SSI CHECK GOING UP

gaaaahhh i'm so tired of being screwed by ssi

but for real this is my last chance if ssi doesnt go up to what it should be I am LITERALLY FUCKED

i've already taken a huge loan I have like $15 to buy food for 19 days

sure I have tons of canned goods and a decent amount of ramen

I just can't wait for the 22nd when I get my first good check for snap

probation is on wednesday

after that payment

i'll be down to only owing $40 more to court costs

and $770 to supervision

GOOD GOD I HOPE SSI GETS FIXED FOR THIS MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't even want to play ahead with what I need to do with my ssi check because i've been getting screwed for so long so i'm just going to do it quickly

but if I finally do get the right amount $890

$100 goes to fees $600 goes to rent that leaves that leaves me with $190

$190 goes to loan

that is april

may $890 $600 to rent $60 to fees $210 to loan which leaves me $20

FINALLY june $890 $600 to rent and $290 to keep i'd like to make the big $180 payment to supervision

$770(march) -60 $710(april) -60 $650(may) -180 $480(june)

8 months $480 to pay july-february only needing to pay $60 a month

if I can keep making $300 a month that's just july and august I need to save up that $480

put everything to the side in august

which leaves me september-april to save money $300 a month for 7 months $2,100

I am SO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TIRED of getting screwed by ssi I CANNOT WAIT FOR THEM TO FIX WHAT I GET !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we will find out around the 25th of this month it's either get it and start winning or another fail month and I risk losing my apartment and being forced to stop supervision which ultimately means prison time

Now on a more positive note

19 days until I get my snap

getting $298 it is going to be SO MUCH FUN lol hahahahahaha I CANNOT WAIT

over my years on probation i've gained a much deeper love for food

eating a huge meal then taking the giant log is so great

I want to get this $298 and go to the store and spend at least $150 

I'm going to need to clean my apartment before I go buy all this food

do I go to the family dollar or do I go to walmart ??????

or just buy new food each day at the mexican meat market ???

there's so much food I can get for $300 hahaha lolol I'm going to be the happiest i've been in years !! YEARS !!!

I want to go to the dollar store and get all the food I look at everytime but never want to go out on a limb to try I want burgers shrimp sandwiches tuna hot wings ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee hahahahahahahaha just 19 more days

hahahahaha this is a dream

gaaaaahhhh

if I go to walmart I can spend $300 so easy so so easy

if I go to the dollar store $300 will fill the entire basket easily

gaaah I can't wait the day after I go to the store and wake up to an apartment with $200+ worth of good food

ugh hahahahahahahah

I want to get like 50 of those fast bites burgers

my air fryer is gonna be putting in work! hahaha

so ssi needs to get fixed ASAP

probation on wednesday

snap in 19 days

next month is my last month paying court costs

i'll be down to 710 owed to supervision

rent is paid

I owe a lot of money for my loan

june i'll be down to under 500 owed

by august I should have everything saved

EVERYTHING DEPENDS ON SSI GETTING FIXED THIS THISSSS MONTH