well I kept begging my mom over and over to help me pay rent

she said no

even after she said she was going to sell the rings to help me

so it came to my last option

to ask my dad

I started off by texting him I needed to talk to him

a few hours later he called me

I just told him I needed his help work let me go and ssi hasn't gone back up

he said sure he would help

so at least rent is going to be paid

hoping my landlord comes at his regular time of the month(around the 13th)

my dad has a lot of money he's worked in the oil field since he was like 18 and he's like in his 60's now

I never ask him for help and barley ever talk to him

since he leaves for like 10 days and comes back for like a week I never know if he is out of town and I dont want to bother him

I didn't have anyone else to ask for help but it's awesome he is going to help me

supervision visit coming up

they came over and did a house visit

I did get a new officer  she's alright I guess seems pretty chill

ill pay 50 court costs and be down to 40 court costs then i'll pay 60 supervision and be down to 720 supervision

next month is my last month paying court costs wooohoooooo

that extra 50 I get to save sure is going to help

hopefully ssi goes up for my next payment so I can actually pay rent and bills without asking for help

I imagine and think ssi will go up but it wouldn't surprise me if they forget about me

I really do not know what I am going to do if ssi doesn't go up

asking my dad was my last option

I guess I could ask him again but what if it doesn't go up AGAIN after that... it just needs to go up and be done so I can finish worrying and being depressed about it all

sucks not having enough money to pay rent and bills when there is no reason you shouldn't have enough

but anyways supervision will come in a few days  i'll go and pay my fees and do my visit like always

be glad to get another month done

and officially at 1 year to go

as soon as ssi goes up I can officially say I think the year will go by fast until my ssi actually goes up to that glorious 890 it is just going to be a drag and feel like it takes forever

because I have no idea how I am going to pay rent and bills

890 -600 rent -60 fees -30 phone -15 internet  leaves me with 185 that is so much money for me to do stuff with

the first few months: paying back what I owe($400)

so 3 months or so to pay off that 400

after that a full 185 a month

save some of it each month for supervision fee once that is all saved up I"M FREE1!!1!

then I can finally start saving up for myself to buy things I actually want